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Hey All



Well i have been having a bad few days and well when you fid a lump in your breast at he age of 22 its not a noce thing so i have been really stressing regarding this but today....today i feel renewed. I havent been given the all clear but i hope and prey and if itsmeant to be its meant to be so please for all those that read this please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as deep down i know m scared and i need it.



Ok down to the knitty gritty of what ive been upto lately i have actually finished my Donna downey canvas album and it was a challenge but once i got started i had thousans of ideas flowing through

You can see the whole thing here.

I have really enjoyed doing this it has been fab doing something different and to be honest i have started a few more off the page projects once i have finished them i will upload them right away.

For now im sharing love a prayers for you all

Ayesha

Try try and try again

I need to find my memory card i have a feeling sama has been upto her little thricks and has taken it from my room hmmmmm!! I need to hunt and hunt and hunt again if no look by tonight i may just order a new one. So the diet begins today its more of cut out the junk diet i intend to eat no fatty foods and maintain a health diet with regular excersise and plenty of water to improve my appearence then theres the slow process of changing the im married to a pakistani and i eat curries ALL the time and eat more what i was grown up on too like veg and salads and past and a good ol' roast chicken. I must say the whole cultural difference can blow a persons mind apart.


I have been invited to an ann summers party tomorrow that my mom is hosting if you have no idea what ann summers is click HERE you get the hint but its mainly for the giggle and i need to relax facter im going!!!! im hoping to get some i can scrap these photos of my mom when shes between drinking way too many drinks through a straw behavour but bless her she is in need of it too....

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Ok so intention - go to my mums anne summers - never went
Intention - find my memory card - i found it indeed

this is what happens when you compose posts over a few days hehe they end up all over the place. Ok so last night was the release of Transformers 2 and i must say it was so worth paying Gold cinema price for as i think it was awsome they have added a few commical points but it makes the film better if you havent plans to watch it or are delaying plans because your not sure its confirmed go see it!!!!!

The kids are well there has been a break of swine flu on my road so we have been told to moniter the kids and ourselves just incase so please pray for us im not so concirned about us bigger ones its the bambinos there not as strong as us!!!

Thanks for stopping by i will have creativeness very soon its just i havent got round to taken pictures due to crap weather and dull lighting lol

Ayesha xxx

Whooo life is hard at times!

Ok so since i last posted my little brother decided to run away from home as right now here in the uk its 'the trend' hes home now after a week and let me tell you i still haven't calmed down. i Have also decorated my front room with pictures to follow eventually as i have lost the memory card to my camera!!!!



But for now i leave you with a pic of my new hair cut

i know i look rough but I'm working on a better me! with everything that's happened over the last few years of my life well i stopped on Sunday, it was my sons birthday he was born premature on June 14th 2007 and lived only 15 minutes he was a true blessing and i think of him a lot but since then i have never really been me i now have 2 beautiful girls and i need to live for me again so I'm on a 10 weeks to a better me.... anyone want to join me?

Ok for now I'm off i need to go chill and spend some TLC time with hubby ;o)

Love y'all

Ayesha

There shall be light at the end of the tunnel

Today has started of as a better day..... I got a full nights sleep, i woke up cleaned the house and cooked Aubergine curry and by 11am im having fun with sama who got my camera and asked 'picta' so we had a tad bit of photo fun.. before my dad came and picked her up

I have decided that for me to fix things and be happy i need to be happy with myself so im planning for a change from tomorrow the post pregnancy diet begins and im going to book an appointment with the hair dresser today but need ideas on cuts to suit me any ideas would be nice....

With sumble not here i have decided to have a me day today, shower, facial etc etc so im off and will be back soon with some questions and pics of my current projects

TFR and show some love

xx

Knock knock...

is anyone in there.... i kinda feel hollow right now somewhat like a robot...

I did some scrapbooking the other night but my vision was somewhat taken to another place and i couldnt get the page right and when i tried it was left incomplete so im only going to post the one out of the 2. i have started a somewhat simple album for my DDs its called watch you grow and i have done the first layout of my DD at 18 months, the journelling is regarding all her positive points and negative points like good and bad habbits lol its kinda nice a little reminder for me, im hoping to get upto 18 months finished soon and keep track of aleenas while shes young.

I occassionally wish my life was different and i know that many will say so make it how you want it! but to change means i may loose some of the most valuble things in my life and i dont want that so what do i do. Ive kinda had enough of my circumstances and wish i was more stronger to make the change without having to loose anything or anyone i miss my happy me im an act i smile when im sad i laugh when i want to cry, i have noticed Sama is as good as gold when things are how i want them to be yet when there not shes so naughty and i dislike that..... its like she is angry at me and its not my fault... i need adult time i need to sit down and talk and get advice.....

Im gonna leave you with what makes me smile every day and reminds me to stay strong

Thanks for stopping by, im sorry if it dont make sense but i sometimes feel like i need to breath and never have anyone to turn too

xxx